I hope everyone is having a wonderful Easter. Or, alternatively, if anyone celebrates just Passover or both holidays in tandem, that they're spending them well with good drink, food, family and friends.

Things have been much the same for me. Introspection and being overtired constantly thanks to work has made me wonder what would happen if I ever took the leap into writing professionally, not just as a side hobby or to make money because I wouldn't have a 'real' job. I know there are always going to be people out there that will say things like, 'I didn't like that book/story,' or 'If I had done it, I'd have done it this way.' Then there's 'Why did the author put that idea in without fully explaining it?' and 'It could never happen that way in real life!' I know there are people out there that take their fiction very seriously (and some might argue that they take it a little too seriously). Yet I know what it's like to pick up your favorite author's book and walk away from it feeling like something was missing, or that the book was utter trash.

I hope that when people read my things someday, if I choose to go into that field, that as few of them come away disillusioned/disappointed as possible. I understand there will always be some people who will. It's the law of averages.

Part of me wants to leave my daytime job and pursue it right now, the other half argues that I'm not good enough yet, no one will buy enough of anything I put out there to pay my bills, and that writing all the time would burn me out and make me hate the activity in general after awhile. I haven't been, as anyone who has been reading my past few journals can see, inspired to do much of anything with my 'serious' writing lately. I guess I just am drained and overworked, as well as tired and nervous when it comes to other peoples' reactions to what I post. The rational part of me knows it shouldn't be that way, but there's no arguing with the queasy cold feeling in my stomach when I think about typing, or the apathy I've been feeling towards it in the face of my daytime crap-job.

I applied for some vacation time in about a month for a few days, and hopefully I'll do something other than angst or catch up on chores...

ETA: More background junk that I need to figure out and need to run it past some people to see if it works. The Oracle's parents (at least one of them anyway) is still alive and he has a half-sister that was born after he was declared Oracle. The thing with being the Oracle is, once the child is declared, their parents can't consider them their child anymore and the other way around, since the Oracle now 'belongs to the clan.' I'm just not sure which parent the half-sister comes from or if she should play a role in the story or not, or is just mentioned to flesh out his background some. Help please? :blink: More details (what I have anyway, which is little right now) will be given if anyone's interested.